Do you remember the old days when we were all young......and we'd always say "When I grow up I wanna be. . . . . " and then we'd think about "the future" and who would get married first....... and who would have kids first? You know the games..... ie: M-A-S-H....you knew that "M" meant that you'd live in a Mansion, "A" for Apartment, "S" for Shack and "H" for House. You knew that your wedding was gonna turn out perfect regardless because you only picked your best friends as the bridesmaids and "white, cream or ivory" as the color of your wedding dress? And you knew DAMN well you hated getting stuck in the Shack with like....8 kids with a job income of like....$20,000.00? So when that happened, you'd throw the paper away and make your friend do it all over again? haha......

I remember hanging out with different groups of girls in the past and for some odd reason...everyone thought that I'd get married first. Or that I'd be the first to have a baby. Boy, were they wrong. I guess I'm feeling so in touch with my emotions right now because it's finally hitting me. Everyone is growing up........we're all adults now. I used to WISH that I'd be the first one to get married and have that ever so happy ending. But now that I'm here.....at that point of my life....I'm thinking....."HELL no, I'm not walking down that plank yet!!!" and "Me?? Have a baby? Do you KNOW how long I've been busting my ass at the gym for this? Please, I can't afford stretchmarks right now." haha.....I don't know what it is!!!! Is it cold feet??? I mean, don't get me wrong, I have TONS of friends that are married and TONS of friends who have kids. I'm SOOOO happy for them  But as for me, I just wanna stay young forever! No strings attached........nothing! I don't wanna grow up yet!!!! I'm not ready to!!!!!

I Need Change

Sometimes I just take a step out of reality and think . . . "What the hell am I doing with myself???" I'm still young and there's just so much that lies ahead of me. But I'm just tired . . . . my physical and emotional state are at it's breaking point. I'm exhausted . . . I'm overwhelmed . . . My everyday life is so repetitious that it's becoming ever so mundane. I can't say that "I need a vacation" because I just came back from one last month (although it would be awfully nice to have another getaway). I don't know what it is . . . I'm just feeling so blah . . . . . I need change . . .

I actually went to the movies to watch "United 93" this weekend and it just wasn't.........I don't know how to say it........what I expected??? I mean, there were people in the theatre that ended up crying because it touched them deep in the heart. Not me.....and don't get me wrong....I DO have a deep heart and feel for those who lost loved ones on 9/11 from the attacks, but I guess I didn't break down into an emotional wreck because I watched the Conspiracy Theory on 9/11 by Alex Jones. For those of you who feel hatred against the Saudi Arabians and wished every single one of them suffered for "what they've done to our country".......you might wanna think again and take a closer look at our government. I truly believe that all of the attacks were carefully planned by our government. Some of you might not believe it because it sounds horrific to think that the president would let 4,000 innocent citizens die. I guarantee that your perspective will change after watching this one hour video >>>>> http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2023320890224991194 

What really happened to Flight 93? Where are all the people? Certainly NOT dead! Sources say that the government took them to a concealed building/laboratory and PAID them millions to keep their mouth shut and sent them to another country to live. I didn't believe this at first, because no one in their right mind would leave ALLLLLL of their loved ones to think that they're dead JUST for money.....until an american woman in Europe was arrested for some sort of shoplifting/small crime and her picture was in the papers. The woman seen in the photo resembled one of the women who "died" on 9/11............sounds creepy or what???? We live in one crazy world, but I just wanna know.......what REALLY happened on 9/11???

WATCH THE VIDEO!!!!!! http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-2023320890224991194